InsaneJournal

Current mood:	melancholy
Current music:	Boards of Canada - Circle
Entry tags:	angst, rewoffl, school

It's too late in the morning to stay up much longer

I got nothing done today. This is becoming a depressing pattern.

Well, not nothing. I went to class and paid a marginal amount of attention to the lectures. I went to work and did about two hours' worth. I had bubbletea with Kimberly. Then I dumped on her, sort of.

Came home and had some cookies, then went into my room as always. I've been online for 6 hours almost continuously now. Somewhere in the middle I pried all the keycaps off my keyboard and rearranged them.

What have I done? I've poked around on okcupid, talked on IRC, and checked mail too much. IRC is dead these days, but especially on Friday afternoons. Nobody was really on any IM much, either.

I'm just stuck in a rut.

Class ends in something like three weeks, and I'm not ready for it. I don't have a job, and apparently it's too late to find anything fulfilling.

I think the problem is that I'm letting the guilt from not actually doing schoolwork build up, which is uncharacteristic of me. The guilt, not the not doing schoolwork. I usually don't care.

I need hugs, damnit, not encouragement.